Master and I

Hello everyone, sorry for the disappearance. Things have been pretty hectic around here with mine and Masters schedules. We are both taking classes, Master works full time at night, and I am working part time. I am glad to be able to say I am finally working though, but sometimes I really hate how our schedules are. There has been a couple days where I only get to see/spend time with Master for about 15 minutes. That upsets me, but I dont work a lot of hours, so thats good for that reason lol.

But anyways to say whats been going on the past few months, Master and I have decided to try for a baby. I was on birth control pills for 5 years, and got off of them in June 2009. We werent too careful during that time, not really trying, not really preventing... just hoping it might happen. Well, nothing ever did happen, so last month (May), we decided to really try. This is our second month trying, and I hope this is it. Im anxious about it. We really want to have a little one. I want to carry Master's child. I love him so much, and he wants one just as bad. We will be a family, instead of just a married couple. lol.

I wish he and I had more "us time", but with the time we do have, I make sure I do things for him, like I always make sure the house is clean with all the domestic duties taken care of, make him dinner when I'm home, make and bring him his coffee in the morning or night, I even go visit him on his lunch break at 11pm, bringing him lunch if I dont work or go to school the next day. I know he appreciates it, but I hope he knows I am doing this as his submissive too, to please him.

Love for my Master

I cant believe its been so long since i have posted! Kind of pisses me off... more so that I am contributing to the others who no longer are posting. It just sucks. I miss coming on here and reading everyones blogs. It kind of puts me in the right state of mind, and when I write, it helps improve my attitude towards my Master and myself. So I apologize to those who do read my blog. I did not want to neglect it, just as I NEVER want DD to fade into the background. I love it too much! lol.
I was listening to Korn, and well, it reminded me of how much I want my Master to take advantage of me. Then it reminded me that I need to get on here and write. Im just mad at myself that I didnt even get to write on Valentines Day and wish everyone a good time. Oh well, I am really going to try and make an effort to update at least once a week. Nothing interesting really happened this week. Master has been working a lot. I did get a spanking towards the end of February, I was being bratty, and it hurt! But secretly, I really love it. It puts me in my place and proves to me the control my Master has over me. I wish he would do it more often. Like maintenance spankings. I dont know, it just really evens things out for me. I know we have been crazy busy, but I am ready for him to be extra strict with me about his rules. I need that control. I am going to talk to him tonight when he gets home. I will keep you posted if he sets out new rules, or whatever he decides. I love him so much! He is so loving and always wants the best for us. I love the life we have together, and DD makes it oh so much better!

UPDATE! (sorry no clever title name lol)

I hate neglecting my blog, as well as neglecting to read others. I truly hate it. I have just been so busy trying to keep up with school and my social life, that I seem to have no "extra time" to write in my blog. Right now I am taking a break from doing my homework to write. I just cannot stand to be stuck on one thing at a time. I'm always jumping from thing to thing, even with housework, I will be doing laundry, then get a thought to do something, do it, then forget what I was doing until later.... Yeah, maybe a slight form of ADD? Who knows... Haven't gotten that checked out at all. I don't really care unless I get something that keeps me on task. But who cares. This blog is about DD!

So anyways, Master is extremely busy also! He tells me maybe its best if I just dont look for a job. I would prefer to have a part time one at least. I miss having spending money. Master is extremely strict with money. I have no freedom with it whatsoever, which I hate. What girl doesnt like to go shopping every once in a while? But he is sweet, he gives me some cash when he gets bonuses and things like that. I really appreciate that he does those things for me.

Also, I havent been bad enough to get a hard spanking. So I guess that is good, but I can tell when I get on his nerves. I just wish he would put me in my place right then and there when that happens. I love when hes dominant like that. He does when we are at home, and will place his hand on the front of my neck to show me his dominance, and it really turns me on! He does many things that turn me on. lol

I am still trying to be his perfect submissive, but like I said before, we have been a little more lax on the subject of that. I'm hoping things get more strict soon. I cant be my best if he doesn't correct me..... That reminds me of that scene in The Shining when the man with the twins is talking about correcting his wife and children lol. Funny how those little things stand out to me.

Finally a New Year

Once again it has been a while since I have posted. Nothing new and exciting was going on, and no real kink was going on in the bedroom. lol. So nothing really interesting to discuss this past month, just living life and seeing where it takes us and making love any chance we get. Life has been busy lately and durring the past month ive given him little tests to see if hes all there, if hes still my Master...And of course he is! Always will be. I havent gotten a spanking in it seems like forever, and it turns Master on so much, I know he wants to paddle my lil ass. But he knows he spanks me when Im bad, and knows I shouldnt get his cock if I'm bad, but I told him if it turns him on that much, we can have just a little play session of spanking, I dont mind; I kind of like it, except when I'm being paddled for punishment. When he spanks me for his pleasure, its loving, he caresses my ass each time before he lifts his hand to smack, and at each raise of his hand I anticipate feeling that sting.

Yes, December was an odd month, but January seems to be starting off good, and we are getting back to ourselves as Master and submissive. I of course, am still thinking some of his decisions are not fair, but I still obey him because he in fact does know what is best for me. Things in our little world are good, but as for our surroundings, not so great. Things with his family have been a bit crazy lately, we can only hope things will work themselves out and I pray we dont get dragged into things that are not our business - which is a good reason why we live an hour away from them. But other than that things are looking good, and so is the job market, its getting better. I think I may be able to find work soon to help Master with bills. I'm happy I entered into another new year with the man I love.