Friday, March 27, 2009

Oral Sex

So tonight, as many nights when my husband is at work, I get extremely bored. So I thought, what better way to use my time than to use it looking up helpful information to better mine and Masters relationship. Master and I have a great sex life, but with me giving him oral sex, there has always been a bit of hesitation from me. He would like me to swallow, and I was never that fond of it. I think its more of a texture thing for me, than the taste. I do understand the importance of swallowing, and I want to be able to do it every time. To me, it symbolizes submissiveness and acceptance of my husband as my Master. Plus, it does seem a bit rude to let him cum in my mouth and then to turn away and spit. It symbolizes rejection, and I think he might feel that. But anyways, I have swallowed a few times, and I am trying to get myself to swallow every time I perform oral on him. I want to make him happy, and I think this would please him greatly. So back to me using my boredom time, I stumbled across this website, and it had so much useful information and tips on swallowing, I just thought I should share. Sorry if this post was TMI, but I think all of you who read this blog know where I'm coming from.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

OMG Twilight!!!! (lol)

Yes, yes, I am a BIG fan, and OMG I cant wait for the movie to be out on video! Yay! My Master pre-ordered it for me last week. I just love the books. I love how Edward is so protective of Bella and always knows whats right for her. Hes so loving towards her. He loves her so much that he would do anything to make her happy, even if it meant hurting himself in the process. They cant survive without each other, it reminds me of me and my Master.

Haha speaking of my Master, he just walked in here and caught a glimpse of what I was writing, and was all "are you writing about Edward?" lol. I said, OMG read the rest of it, Jeez!!!! Hes funny, he read it, and kissed me on the cheek. But anyways, that's why I love the whole Twilight series, it reminds me of us, and I love him!

Thursday, March 12, 2009

To Master

I Love You Master. Always and Forever. We are soulmates.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Feeling Lonely

Hi everyone, sorry for not updating in a while. Things have been a little hectic. My husband got switched to night shift, and I thought Id be able to handle it. The first week was okay, a little lonely but okay. But tonight, is his first day of his week, and I completely broke down. I feel so lonely. I told Master this as I cried in his arms, and I told him I didn't want him to go. I hate it. I know hes doing this for us, to make more money, but its just really hard on me. I'm happy he understands that. He told me that I don't need to stay at the house, but what am I going to do? Who would I go see? I don't have any close friends where we live, and my family is about an hour away in a different town. I know an hour isn't that far, but the drive I have to take is, and its a bit dangerous. Its a two lane highway the whole way there (just about) and I don't like driving it at night. But anyways, at least me writing this is helping me feel a little better about it.

We also brought a puppy home last Thursday. I guess he can keep me company. Hes very cute. Very playful and he makes me smile.

My Masters paddle came when I thought it would, I had it engraved to say "Obey Master". He loved it! He did end up using it on me. Just one swat, and it hurt! It stung really bad. I do not look forward to him using this in the future, so I guess I will focus on biting my tongue. lol